I've been feeling really
uncomfortable with my own habit of quoting other people's emails in my
journal entries, even (maybe especially) if they're entries that I
filter to a small group of people. It just isn't right. If someone
writes me a personal message, he's trusting me implicitly to not turn
around and tell other people what he said. I've tried paraphrasing as
a workaround for my guilt, but that's such a cop-out; in fact, it's
even worse -- I can't do it without sounding glib and superficial.
Not to say that I'm not glib and superficial.
Now, I pretty much tell Maya leadsynth everything anyway, and anyone who's not
okay with that might be better off never telling me anything, but
still, I don't have to be so offhand about it -- sharing things that
were told to me in confidence with any list of people that comes from
a frickin' database query, for God's sake -- however carefully
considered I imagine that list to be.
To hell with friends filters.
I don't develop crushes easily or quickly. They take a very long time
to develop, in fact. So I feel a little odd about this weekend,
because although I don't have a crush yet, it might be a proto-crush.
It's too early to tell if it's a proto-crush, or if it's simply that I
think you're awesome. You see, on Saturday night, I was sort of
falling asleep and going "yeah, uh-huh" to things you said, but then I
came awake and suddenly realized that your feet were in my lap and you
were quoting my favorite Borges short story to me. And I kept
having little flashes of "he's awesome", like "orthogonal" or your
hipster PDA, or after the Vanderslice concert when being with you
turned a boring trip home on the red and blue lines into a wild
midnight jaunt across the city. We were practically skipping
through the Washington tunnel. At least, that's what it felt like we